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♥ To contact me for something characterization wise you believe iffy and are afraid to tell me so over AIM (Larisa Thessaly) or email (thess.fan.of.hellsing@gmail) concerning anything about this character. Anon or signed up. Comments are to be screened unless there's desire to be unscreened. I'll know and if you want a reply, I'll try to give you that. OOCness, stagnant development, inconsistency, unfair info modding, probable godmodding, etc, etc. None of this are done in purpose, but I'm human and I can easily make stupid mistakes. Want to fix them up as soon as possible.

♥ Rl vored me and I'm unable to thread/be active/get you back for a plot! Too of that AIM is just being an ass too. So this will be a message center and heads up! Link me any important stuff I missed.

Before sending criticism/doubts, I'll clarify that Youko is (to date) taken between chapters 14 and 15, after the wolf youma attack in Kou. That's episode 3, before she meets Takki (only without Sugimoto or Asano in the novels, Youko's alone during her journey). Youko's currently from episode 6/chapter 42 in her journey with Rakushun before they were attacked. In her second update, Youko comes from her time in En, just MOMENTS before she finds out she's really chosen to be the Glory-King, Emperor of Kei. Third update incoming, Youko's taken after the formal enthroning ceremony, moments previous she went to greet her honored guests: En-Ou, Enki and Rakushun. The canon I'm primary using are the novels, but some events of the anime (like the second and fourth arc Youko is told events of the Tai and En novels about or the fillers with her relationship with other people, particularly those with Rakushun yes, I love their relationship. stfu ;;, are in too) I can easily see that taking place in novelverse. But to Youko, Sugimoto is JUST a girl she shunned in school and she never met Asano. Their presence will be ignored as they don't play a role in the novels (where Youko's debates don't need foils).

( Have you ever felt as if you don't belong to the world you live? )

( Royal FAQ )

I think I covered the most important tidbits.

Any questions?

( [⇒ Notes: People Flood | Offline in Youko's computer] )

I think I was tested last evening, but I stay firm with my promise that I made to myself that day. Not that I expected him to thank me. I'm starting to miss the female Death personification, she was less of a jerk to have around.

Huh. My head hurts. Maybe we should go out to the movies again soon. I need to take my mind off this for a moment. Who has a good recommendation? Something fun with adventure, maybe deep messages, and not much romance in it. I'm sick to see romantic relationships thanks to our "guests." Who else got weird art "presents" from all those weirdos on Saturday? "Pairing"? That's how one of them call them. What was that about? Speaking of them, I'm missing some of them; the one with Shoukei.

I doubt that Taiki hid it.

[Filtered from Shouryuu]

Shouryuu. Fuukan. Komatsu. I kinda lost the track of all the names he uses. This guy. His birthday is on the 31st of this month and I'd thought to make a party for him with all his friends, but I don't know where to start or how many people he had met here. So, please, if you are in friendly terms with him, just let me know. I'm Nakajima Youko, his peer of sorts, nice to meet you.

Party ideas? ...Ideas that don't involve women coming out from cakes. We're going to keep this kid-friendly to his disappointment.

[Keiki]

Keiki? god this is so embarrassing. I...uhh tried to remember who is who in Court, but that isn't working so well. Can you teach me? We could go to the fountain together and review them, one by one, until I get to learn their faces, ranks and names.

I can hear him sighing from the library.

( [⇒ Assignment: Hierarchy in the Kingdom of Kei Part for Keiki | Unfinished Thrown Draft] )

I'd like to remember who everybody is right away, but this noise is making it harder than it already is. What a mess of a ruler I'm.

I guess the City invisible gates got busted again. It'll be nice if those who drop by today tell us how they leave. Just an idea. Did anyone ask them before? You catch more flies with honey. Good one, Rin.

Keiki, I think Taiki and his shirei should remain inside. These people never bothered me that much before, but there's so many and they could get excitable if they get too close to the kid. You should remain inside too. I'll take a look around if I see familiar faces or voices. Last time, there were several of our world brought in here.

I'm not counting with seeing him again. Man, why I'm so anxious for?

[There's a soft soft. Sheets being slide under the door frame.]

Huh? What's... this? Ke-Keiki?! [She makes a pause, there's a sound of choked giggle fit. The amusement dies when she takes a look to one of the other pieces] No way. That's ME AND... Koukan? It's written in Kanji. The Lord of Baku Province and me? That's freaking nuts.

What the hell is all this about?! I don't even recognize half of the people who are in this stuff with me!

(ooc; Youko's the bicycle of the Japanese 12K fandom. She's paired off with EVERYONE including Keiki's shirei /sob. You know you want to find this Action/Voice/etc, just no duplicates, don't tell her she's fictional or many spoilers plz.

I know Uikyou's anime only but we didn't get to know the LotPS? Blame Ono for not giving us names for Youko's old Court! :( ).

( [Off line: Apology gift] )

God, I'm sorry about what happened this weekend. I look at the time wasted and realized I couldn't do anything productive aside of whimper or be a jerk to my friends. I'll look at Kenshin's wounds today, Kenji, I hope he's still okay and that the Hospital people took care of him. He's doing better, right?

Kaoru... Is she really gone?

Huh.

I guess this is me jumping to the after curse apology bandwagon. I don't want to hear the typical "but that's a curse, so it's okay, it wasn't you" coddling response, because that was me on both occasions. The City regressed me in the past, but it didn't change me. I was that type of small and stupid girl who would do as she said to avoid conflict and pretend she's good to please others. When she found the real world and that the real world didn't like her, she crumbled easily because she wasn't a good person inside, she was callous and grew bitter.

If wasn't for this kind hanjuu who accidentally found her in the mountain road that made her begin to trust for the first time, because she didn't give a chance to befriend others, not really. If wasn't because she could face her own shortcomings to finally become me.

Now you get it? Why I said I couldn't be a good ruler back then? Because I knew the kind of weak person I could be.

Wasn't Confucius the one who said that "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step"? Back then, I took the first step to become stronger and better for my own sake, that was before I gave it. So I'm ashamed that you had to meet me as that, because I thought I had left that starting point months ago. And I doubt I'll see the end of the journey from here, there's still a long to go. I guess that's it.

I'm sorry.

I don't expect to be forgiven so easily. Not everybody has Rakushun's saintly patience, but I'm willing to make amends. I, uhh, scared some of you badly yesterday.

...

Well, maybe I should begin with finding somebody to fix the door.

[Setsuna]

Was that you?

[Cain Hargreaves]

I apologize I've been so disconnected from the play business for so long that isn't funny. And we're out of time. So, uhh, do you know the date of the general rehearsal? Do you want to do a last rehearsal with me alone before the group one?

( [Open Comment log. In the Fountain] )

(ooc; Links OOC).

Strange...

[This isn't like I read in my history class, she thinks.

Youko Nakajima is sat against the trunk of tree, glancing at the surface of her sword and catching a breath. She looks sideways, green eyes filled with fright, while she begins to examine her clothing. Her blue high school uniform is drenched in blood and covered with her sweat. She had peeled off her jacket earlier, but it seemed every single article didn't escape that fight she just had, her skirt was torn by the teeth of the youma wolf pack. She shivered, feeling the ache coming from the lacerations etching her legs.

Strange. They were minor cuts and bruises when she had seen them ripping a man's head off with a clean single bite. She took a few more deep breaths, looking at the surroundings. Eyes widening slightly.]

H-Huh?

[The forest had changed, she observed, there were more pines around her and she could swear the weather was nowhere as warm and the breeze that was blowing. Did she doze off or...?]

GOD. What's going on now? This is so weird.

[She choked a sob, grasping the sapphire tightly. Now she couldn't go back for the scabbard. She was completely lost.]

Jouyuu-san? Are you there? Do you now where I am? Please answer me!

[There was no answer. She didn't know what to do and she felt the desperation building inside her. She hugged her legs together, shutting her eyes close. I only want to know what should I do next! Again. There was no answer.]

I want to go home!

[She opened her eyes, feeling tears stream down her cheeks. She felt despair settling in when Youko spotted something she could have sworn wasn't there before. No way... She stood in slow motion and stumbled with her own steps, closer and closer to the screen. This was... Was she? She dropped the sapphire and the sword before collapsing to her knees. She began to openly cry, tears of joy, and to laugh hysterically.

This has to be Japan!]

Oh thank you god, THANK YOU.

(ooc; Audio + AP for whoever wants).

( [⇒ Assignment: Hierarchy in the Twelve Kingdoms Court Second Part for Enki | Copy delivered to Keiki] )

I think it's okay for me to like mice, I don't get why people get surprised by having a pet like that. Since I have been busy lately with my lessons and the play, I have never thought about how I adore to hold Raku-kun so close to my chest and rub my cheek over the soft, gray fur coat. The hypnotic sway of his tail or how his whiskers quiver when I-
FJDSKLJFDKSLJFDKLSJFDKLFJDKSFJLDSGOD WHAT I AM SAYING?! pet him. That tickles! I never realized I like the ears the best. I know where that came from.

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...god, I give up.

I just loved when my dad agreed to take me to Disneyland and I could get a pair of Mickey ears. Mine always had a white ribbon which killed the raw style, but what I got to do? What I liked best is how I could brush my fingers over the round surface. It gives me chills to think about what if they had fur there. G-Grey fur. You know, even if they do, it won't compare to the natural feeling of Raku....KUN.

...

..........

No way...

Looks like I have three to spare from the ones I got. Soooo, who wants one? That'll make me very.... DON'T forget that we're going shopping for the beach party this afternoon, and all of you are coming to get swimming suits. Yeah, even you, Keiki. No buts or sighing, consider it an edict that everyone in attendance to beach party has to wear it. You are so pale that a tan won't kill you.

Huh. M...maybe we should wear Mickey ear hats too! We definitely need to right now. That's the best next to the real thing for me. GOD-Nobody come inside my room!

(ooc; Youko's paper has a mistake, she mixed Yellow and White Units. Some people like cats too much, other people prefers mice. Not overly sexual).

( [⇒ Assignment: Hierarchy in the Twelve Kingdoms for Enki | Copy delivered to Keiki] )

I don't know what to say about anniversaries. I never really started to keep the track of time, except for birthdays, holidays, exams or school events, I didn't care before. How long have I been wearing this shirt? How long have we been friends? Commemorating special dates wasn't just my thing. Or maybe because, before this world and the other one, I got no special date to share. I just lived.

Anyways, City, I have been around for a whole year and counting. I've landed here on May 14 last year, but counting the missing days of my exits, today is the real anniversary. No party, though, I don't feel festive enough to celebrate with a cake this occasion. I love the people I've met and the chances I was given to grow here, but I don't want to remain to celebrate another anniversary.

Huh. On a happier note, I've already memorized my lines as Hippolyta, Queen of the Amazons, for the A Midsummer Night's Dream, Neil. You are okay after yesterday, right? I guess that makes us grateful about the City's usual politics with the dead. You know, I just realized that I wasted a good chance to check out the theory of people dead for good getting a grave in the cemetery, I should have gone to check it out during the curse. Did anyone do that? Or the Hall of the Missing? If we die for good here, do we still count as citizens? Or a portrait of ours will show up there? Who knows. Maybe what we discover today, will become outdated by tomorrow. This world evolves so fast. I can see that by only being one year here.

Royal of-

En Ou... I should have asked if he minded to have his rank revealed.

May I ask you something, Shouryuu? It's a big favor. Two, in fact.

[Filtered from Keiki]



Isn't he the cutest? I hope Keiki won't accidentally crush him under his body when he rolls over. That'll be pretty bad to see.

( [⇒ Off line. The Art of War by Sun Tzu. An Analysis. Unfinished. Discarded.] )

Useless...god. I can't do this now.

...Mom.

Okaaay... I finished sweeping off the hair from my room, the kitchen, the bathroom and the living room, but that's it. Want yours clean? Grab the broom and please don't touch the vacuum unless you really know how to use it. This goes to you, Enki.

I'm going to join the collective relief sigh from the people of the Network. I'm glad it's over, and I don't really care how it ended, but I hope it never happens again. I'll be swearing off lemon cakes as desserts in a loooong while. Strawberry and chocolate are better, anyways.

Anybody got a book recommendation that doesn't include: a) War. b) Leadership or Strategy. c) Anything to do with China or Dynasties? d) Send to another world fantasy (I think none of us would take them seriously anymore, huh?). I just want some variety in my reading. Sci-Fi, Crime or Mystery are good. Poetry too.

Huh, hey Neil. I didn't ask you before, but I sorta need to know: When is the play? If you still need me for a role, tell me a few days before I make an idiot of myself for not learning my lines... if I got any.

A big thank you to anyone who put up with me as a child. Specially you, Keiki. To the risk of get myself sighed to death... That was adorable, you know? I don't think I liked to be a kid again, for many reasons, it made me remember how my life used to be and what I thought was my "duty" with my family, it left me a sour taste in my mouth. I'm going to do something about it. That's why, Enki, what I asked you to do for me when we go back? I need to tell you what I'm going to write in that letter.

I need to make my mom believe I died.

( [Comment Log: Open at the Fountain] )

...M-Mom? [There's a young girl dressed in a pink dress and white blouse, looking frightened in a tidy room. She is Japanese and aside of her slightly reddened hair tied in twin pigtails there is nothing abnormally foreign about her her. On bed there is The Art of War by Sun Tzu next to The Prince by Machiavelli. Both in their original languages. She scurries out the bed, bitting her bottom lip.

She's holding a folded pair of blue jeans.]

Mom? Mommy?! D-Dad? Someone, please? W-Where I am?

[She wipes the tears from her eyes.]

( [⇒ Off line. List of Strategy Books of Warfare and Leadership Pending to Read] )

War against the Nazis, huh? Really great timing in the middle of this weather. Can't say I'm too fond of what they've been doing. Good luck, whoever goes to fight them. Go and kick ass, I'm sorry I'm not much of help but this isn't my world or kingdom to risk my life for there's nothing I could really in this case. Keiki, Enki, Taiki, I think the three of you should remain inside, it's still pouring down out there and you might get sick if you leave. Keep the windows shut. There's going to be a blood bath for sure, I'm betting that the moist air would smell to it. I'm coming back home soon; I went to borrow a couple of books at the library.

Speaking of war and books... Which strategy warfare book is your favorite? I'm looking for great treatises like The Book of the Five Rings, but I'll settle by lesser known obscure writings in the subject. Huh. Carrying on with this, Rin was interested in more game sessions, Konata. When are you free?

To everyone who got their dreams invaded by my presence: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. If there's anything I could do for you to make amends, just tell me.

Geesh, when will the rain stop?

( [Open Comment Log: Library] )

( [⇒ Geography Assignment of the Eastern Kingdom of Kei for Keiki] )

This comes off as a moment of late reflection, but since I've been not posting about anything here, maybe I should take it out my chest, huh? What is the value of life to each of us? To what ends we continue to cling into it and which motives we might have to simply give up? Last curse gave those who were dead a heartbeat, but that alone is defined as life in a place like this? Because there is death and there is death like that graveyard near Xanadu where nobody ever puts a flower and we're not even sure if real people are buried in there. So what about life? What about how we choose to lead every day and the consequences of our actions?

If it hurts so much, it could be over in a moment.

I used to hear that grating voice sometimes in my head and sometimes outside in a vision. I just resolved to never give up. Huh. Turns up fine because my death right now doesn't belong to me. Noooot completely. My life keeps being my own.

Well, seriously heavy topic aside, is anybody around who could teach me strategy or warfare and leadership tips?

Akane? Didn't you say about a carnival the other day?

[Konata]

I'll like another session soon. Are you still up those?

( Comment log: Introspective & Open to everyone at the Lux )

( [⇒ Geography Assignment of the Twelve Kingdoms for Enki | Copy delivered to Keiki] )

Well... "Trinity Hall" didn't resemble my school at all; they far less strict and nobody got on my case because I'm redhead. It must be the extra pressure they put on the Japanese education system and traditions, but it made me think over the past. I don't know if I really miss high school, it sure brought up "fond" memories about how easy life used to be when your only worries were about study, shallow socializing and graduating to get into a good College and move on with your life. Those were the easy years, but that was a lifestyle many of us have chosen to leave behind because it's not what we must do anymore even if a little corner of our heart will belong to those days.

Huh. But here I am, still studying although for different purposes.

Rakushun? Man, you were really nervous last night. I, uhh, thanks for coming with me I found you an archery teacher. See City reminds us we shouldn't slack off from our lessons. Let's go and buy you a bow for you to start next week. If that's fine with Kate-sensei.

Enki? Keiki? Did you get my manuscript?

I am who I am!

I... I am who I've always been, nothing more! Not once have I ever been anything other than myself. Call me king or kaikyaku, that has nothing to do with me! Rakushun, you're the one I've come all this way with.



I'm not the one who's far away. It's your feelings that are! You and I are standing no more than two steps apart!

...

Huh. This curse is real intense about our private stuff. I'm sorry, Rakushun.

(ooc; Go to 7:45-9:03, bit different from the novel sequence like no En Ou and Enki stalkers but it'll do. Zully hope you don't mind ;_; Comment log for Rakushun? Journal to others).

( [Private] )

Huh. That was a weird curse. I think there's no need to point out that I'm nobody's wife, mother or biological sister, right? I'll never become none of these either.

Sorry that you had to endure a curse so soon, Rakushun. I'd planned to take you shopping yesterday, so you could buy more clothes to wear in your human form. We can do that today. You'll need to become used to that body to pass your riding and archery courses at the University; it'll be a good idea to not waste time and practice while we're trapped here. We can ask around if there are instructors to teach you those disciplines.

I guess I'll have to teach you more about computers to you too.

Keiki, uhh, I'm so sorry about what happened the other day. I've already accepted and I want to renew my lessons the sooner as possible. I know you were cursed last Saturday, but I grateful for your words of encouragement. That was nice while it lasted. Right, I almost forgot. Taiki wanted to go to the zoo someday. Would you and En Taiho take him?

Sooo...

Was it a curse, Moro?

[Kenshin]

I saw her arrival...

( The Second Attempt: Comment Log at the Fountain )

Did this work at last? Man, it’s hard to make this strange gizmo work. There’s nothing like this in Kei or in Kou.

Huh. I’ve never thought I would be around here a complete year, but soon it’ll be my anniversary. I came to this strange new world in the Fifth Month, last year, 2008? I never asked but 2008 of what? Reign of these deities? Adjusting to this new technology and world has been hard at the beginning, thank god we don’t have language barriers among us or I’ve been driven crazy.

I remember it was the second month of the seventh year of Yosei to me. That witch Jokaku had finally passed away. I’m glad she paid for everything… I don't want to give details. There’s still hope next ruler wouldn’t be a woman, third in a row of bad empresses? No, thanks, we’re done with queens.

I guess that every world has its own issues. Like the curses here. Nobody should be forced to do or feel things against their will; that's denigrating our condition of masters of our own lives! And... well, Hourai was supposed to have rich lands with roads paved on gold according to our legends, but Rin’s descriptions of it didn’t make it sound too different from our kingdoms. I just hope Rakushun and his mother are still okay. I really miss them.

…Maybe is time I get another job here. I won’t be sixteen forever.

Soo, Ryoga? Akane? Rin? Kagehisa? Any plans for—

[Pauuuuuuuuse]

Hahh? Who are you and what are you doing in my house?! Go on! Answer!

( OOC: TLDR )

Woah, woah… I didn’t expect my almost-two-day absence to be noticed that much. It’s very weird in a good way flattering that I have friends that missed me here. You don’t know how much that means to me. Because the past two times I went and returned were…forgettable. This is it, huh? This is how you become a good person.

I guess it doesn’t take to be an Emperor to be that, Rakushun. god… I miss you so much.

Still trying to go back into the City’s usual weekly routine: curses and its consequences mostly. We're not made with a switch on and off about how to live in different worlds, but it's mostly an exercise of jolting my memory. Some stuff keeps being foggy, like specific locations and details, but I’ve managed to remember the majority of my experiences here. Those were only a few months, but my life changed drastically during them and I had pushed this crazy dream aside.

But here I am, you’re real, this is solid. I’ve missed you all. Not the curses, though, I hope the lovey-lovey theme ends very soon. Refresh my memory if I had an important commitment I must have forgotten.

[Roommates]

We’re a little cramped, right? I think I understand your claustrophobia a little more, Rokuta-kun. After living in Kippa Palace (which was exaggeratingly big and I hadn’t finished to tour half of itsquarters), our place is like a tuna can. Maybe we could move into a bigger apartment or we can bring down the wall with the neighbor one. What do you say, Ryouga-kun? Are you strong enough for this task? Since Seiya-kun has departed and has still no signal of return… He wouldn’t mind if we stored his instruments in a room and used the extra space. Opinions?

I have something else to ask you, Enki.

( [Arthur & Enki || Honorable Professors Filter] )

( [Reepicheep] )

Added:( [King Caspian] )

( Open Action Post. Later at the evening )

[After the enthroning ceremony was over, Youko, Imperial name Sekishi, went to hang the Kei regalia in her studio. Her guests Rakushun, En Taiho and En Ou would be waiting to be greeted, however she couldn't help but take a partying glimpse into the edge of her weapon.

Show me... my home.

The steel began to glow with a phosphoresce blue light, glimpses of Japan, her house and old school appeared briefly, tugging her heart in nostalgia. She closed her eyes at the vision of her mother, still awaiting her return.] There was no way I couldn't do this without hurting. This is what I ought to choose.

[As she opened her eyes again, the sword has stopped its visions. Abruptly, she turns to the sound of falling water. Fountain? No longer in the Kinpa Palace or even the Kingdom of Kei, the young girl adorned in heavy robes and bejeweled, sheathes her sword and studies her surroundings bewildered.]

Huh? Where is this-- [She pauses, looking from the near fountain to the carousel. It looks familiar, a dream, her memory slowly jolted.

We have been in this place before, Your Majesty. The hinman assures her; his voice echoes inside her head.] Keiki? Keiki!

I think I'm--

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If Seiya-kun were still here, he would be very happy with this. This is very awkward. I bought chocolate for all my male friends in the City: Line up if you want one! This is a Japanese tradition for women, so no important man in our lives would be left out. You get one like all the other guys, Rokuta, no special treatment.

Don't think is a romantic gesture or anything.

[FAIL attempt to filter to Reepicheep (City magic curse-It's PUBLIC)]

How do I do this? I have never felt this way. What if he rejects me? I can do it. And... well, I won't stop loving him if he doesn't.

Sir Reepicheep. I have homemade chocolate for you...



This isn't offensive, right? Hearts-shaped sweets were so cliché and expected for the date when I wanted to personalize my feelings for you in a special way. This isn't an obligation chocolate, this is my way to express how much you mean in my life. Accept them, please. This might seem sudden but what better day than today?

Huh. I know you'll point out our different species, but look beyond our appearances! I don't care what you are. There is a Valentine's Day party tomorrow and I was wondering if you'll be my... partner during the ball.

( Filtered to Justine/those involved in Thomas' party sans Harry )

(ooc; yukina_raven. OMG Thank you for the paid account ♥♥)

Two New Years celebrations have passed already, the closing of a stage and the beginning of a new one, closure and renewal but I don’t look different since I left Japan. I have changed in many ways: my hair and eyes are of a different shade, the sun darkened my skin, and my body is more athletic than it used to be, but I also remain very much the same: I haven't grown a single inch of height and I don’t look any older.

I left Tokyo as a sixteen years old-going-on seventeen. I should be seventeen-going-on eighteen right now, but I'm not. Huh. I didn’t have a chance to notice this in Kou, and I was in En too little to begin to care about my appearance. Apart of wondering when I was going to grow fur and claws… Sooo, I'm curious:

Has anybody aged since you were here in the City?

Or nobody does really? As if time stops for us, so we’ll return home looking exactly the same as we used to do. I’m talking about average living people; I know those who died wouldn’t age anyways.

[Rokuta]

I have a surprise for you waiting in the kitchen! And a big favor to ask.

[Tianzi. Assumed this was added later, after the Enki exchange]

Hey, ready for the Kirin-sighting trip? I made snacks and packed a thermo with orange juice if we got hungry or thirsty.